​About me: 何建舒 

To everyone,

Hello! My name is He Jianshu, my English name is Amy. I wanted to start writing about my experiences as a Chinese adoptee in America and hoped my words may help others feeling the same way or are wondering if their feelings are valid. 

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I was left at three days old, or so my note says, to a government run orphanage. I was adopted at six months old by a large, loving family. Though my family is loving, I have had many struggles in my life that I was not sure others felt--I felt as if I was the only adoptee feeling the way I do. 

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Was I mad at my birth parents? Yes. Was I confused? Yes. Was there something wrong with me? Maybe. The one question, however, was why? Why was I mad? Why was I confused? Why did they leave me? There are no answers. 

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As I have gotten older, I realized three things: I cannot change the past, I am the person I am, and I am worth everything. Some people may disagree, but that is my personal experience. I have grown to be more self-confident and independent. Yes, I still struggle with my unanswered questions, but I have never been truly happy until I realized these things. 

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I hope everyone reading this will know they are not alone and everyone in your life truly cares about you. No one is putting up a front, no one will leave you that truly is there for you, you are worth everything. 

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You may or not be wondering why I used this particular background of bubbles. It is fun, yes, but also the simplistic idea of a bubble. We are all in a sphere of self-doubt, ignorance, and a multitude of other negative adjectives you could possibly think of. No matter who one is, they are also in such a sphere. 

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The bubble bursting is the sign of freedom. Perhaps with all of the negative feelings constricting us gone, we can experience ourselves to our fullest. No, all of the negative feelings will not be gone; however, the ones holding us back may be. 

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Think back to when you were younger. You more than likely loved blowing bubbles and loved trying to pop them. With our bubble bursting, we are freer than ever before to bring someone else joy into their lives. This is what I hope, for myself and others.